Drink It Or Not, The Witch’s Soup (Part2)

My happiness is futile, If I am no longer feeling sad

Johnny
4 min readNov 27, 2018

“Today! There is a magical soup that can deliberate all your sadness, sorrow, and grief. Will you take a sip? — Inspired by a topic from the TV program “I Can I BB.”

Every time I had some interesting topics I like to post a pool in my Instagram story just to share with my friends, as for this magic soup, nearly 83% of my friends on Instagram voted for “Yes, I will drink it.” Thus to make the discussion more debatable, I will choose the side of “No, I am not drinking it,” although my original idea was also not to drink the soup.

I consider myself as an emotional, sensitive person, not because I often triggered by events around me, like when I watch politic news I will get my nerve on; when I read stories, I will easily be motivated. But often time, I can’t help to devote my whole self to a setting. You may call it myself-indulgence. For example, when I am watching a movie, I usually imagine myself as part of a role inside the scene, even after the movie, my calling-back feeling needs several days to dismiss. My brain will still be full of the plots, and my emotion will be staying still as the movie is on and on.

Once upon a time, when I was watching the cartoon movie”Paddington 2” in my home, I was crying loudly when Paddington was denied to help to clean the window for a person. I was like:”How can you reject him, he is so cute!” For a moment I felt despondent, seriously. I think the reason why my tears burst out was that this tiny plot has triggered one thing, the thing that is all about how a marvelous tragedy was made in movies — by destroying the beautiful thing. I felt regretful, pity and helpless, which all consist my sadness. Maybe this example doesn’t make much sense to you for why I cried for Paddington, then let’s think something similar. The “Titanic.” I believed many of us had watched it.

“Jack, I’m flying!”

“I’ll never let go, Jack. I’ll never let go.”

“You Jump, I jump.”

— Rose

Nonetheless, the “Titanic” always brings me to tear whenever I watch it. When the cold, fierce ocean water swallows protagonists and all the other people onboard, a sense of sad also emerges — oh, love can be destroyed.

Image: “Titanic” Movie

But while I was weeping, there was a feeling alongside with my sadness. I felt happy, not the “LOL” or the“Hahaha” , but the happy of feeling the happiness, calm and peaceful.

“I think, my happy doesn’t come along from laugh but rather a smile, with tears included.”

Because I was so glad these were presented in front of me by movies, they were reminding me to grow empathy and a sense of thankfulness that out of the movies and link to the real life. I think this is how sadness gives joy the meaning.

Happy, joy; Sad, sorrow are relative to each other; there is an interdependent relationship with each other. At least to me, I think so. If the soup is trying to wipe out all of our sadness, it is also trying to wipe out all of our happiness, literally the true happiness — of something that is meaningful, something that is remarkable, something that is unforgettable — joy. Not the “LOL” thing.

I googled something about people and sadness. Many have asked: “How I can forget my sad experience.” The answers were turned out to be encouraging the askers to correctly and suitably cope with their suffering. Not even to deal with or to solve their sadness — which removes it at all, but to get along their sadness, to harmonize their sadness. I am more than concur to this point. I did notice for many of people who had suffered greatly, and that kind of sadness is just mere, pointless pain — for example, those who had a great depression, PTSD(Post-traumatic stress disorder).

Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is a mental health condition that’s triggered by a terrifying event — either experiencing it or witnessing it. — Mayo Foundation for Medical Education and Research

To forget about the past sorrow completely, to kill the ‘dark hole’ inside those’s hearts are of course what they may have wanted. But the soup is not the cure; take pills, take whatever means can be helpful with reducing your pain, but not like the soup that deliberates all the sadness of you. The soup is more of an anesthetic than an antidote. Even what you have suffered could be something cureless, then it is by the time you shall not remove all the sadness just to defeat one of the darkness, rather shall we learn to get along with the suffered.

One of my friends is telling me: “life is hard, being positive or negative is even plain, but one thing, we shall keep our head up.”

Thank you for reading, hope my poor writing didn’t bother you that much. I am doing a 30 days writing challenge, I gotta keep practicing writing. I will try my best to do better! Have a wonderful day, my friend:)

Actually this will be continued, I had a few more thoughts on this, but due to the time limit, I’d post it first. Agh…. I know, :((((

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Johnny

I am writing stories for Shia Tshyu, who moved to Seoul...